I am enjoying life now.
No no, I am not yet retired.
And no, it’s not that I am living a life of luxury.
It’s just that now, I have more time for myself.
So what exactly am I are to?
The thing is, I have taken a sabbatical from work.
For six months. I wish it could be longer, but unfortunately the organisation that I am currently employed to will not be able to accede to anything longer.
And really 6 months is better than nothing.
And I am enjoying the benefits of this sabbatical.
It’s not like I am leading a really cool life right now, you know sipping latte at cafes while blogging in the humid afternoon.
Nor meeting up with my girlfriends for the “girls night out” kinda thing.
In fact, a better definition would probably be a stay-at-home- mum.
And I am totally enjoying it. (For now.)
The stay at home part, yes. The mom part, now and then :p (just kidding).
I don’t wake up on monday morning feeling the blues.
In fact, every single day feels like the weekend to me.
There’s no stress from work.
And I feel so much more radiant, and healthier (although I have slacked off on my diet recently, need to get back to healthier food selection)
And I have gained weight!
Which is a huge deal for me. In fact, throughout my both pregnancies, I gained very little weight, and as a result, my babies born were pretty small (especially Ally). And part of it was also because of work related stress and hours.
And now that I am not working, and I have no timelines to think about, nor bosses’ moods to mitigate. Life has never been better.
You see, I don’t hate my job.
And in fact, I enjoy it sometimes.
But I think I had suffered from a burnout.
And as such, I am glad that I have this break to gather myself again.
And at the same time, spend some quality time with my loved ones.
A friend of mine was asking me if I had not contemplated going on a vacation or something since I am on such a long break.
Which got me thinking.
In fact, I don’t really have such a strong desire to go on vacation now compared to when I was working.
I guess when you are at work, you look forward to the holidays and vacation time, as those are our little “escapes” from work.
But when you are living your daily life as though it is the weekend everyday, seriously, you don’t really feel like you need to escape to anything.
I do not deny that sometimes I will fantasize lying on an idyllic beach somewhere sipping coconuts. But the desire is not that strong anymore.
So where will we go from here?
In fact, the lack of income from these few months might move our timeline back a little.
And perhaps, I will get so used to this that I might want to extend it further, which might mean leaving my employment entirely etc.
For now, we don’t yet know.
I am just enjoying the moments. Savouring them.
And perhaps, giving retirement a trial at the same time.
Perhaps in a few month’s time, I’ll get tired of this and want to head back to work.
Or perhaps, I will want to end this sabbatical earlier because I am sick of babysitting.
Sometimes, it’s great to live life as it is, without overthinking on your choice.
But having said that, Dave and I are glad that we have the resources that allows me to go on this sabbatical.
And having this choice, is priceless.